Versified Angst

sometimes...

2010-10-28T13:11:00.000-07:00

and when the unexpected befalls
and leaves a path not rived
when the mind chokes
and the heart cries
never thought was i
to be the one am i
to lose the thing i have
or rather had had
life spins and twirls
chipped walls swirl by
and its no longer you
its the dummy alive

Essay

2010-07-15T03:45:00.000-07:00

its nothing more
than an incomplete essay
with loops and blanks
unpunctuated
i have the task
to fill them all
the is what its meant for
that is to it all

and i am wrong sometimes
with the choice of words
i am rewarded for rights
and spanked for the wrongs
but now am askded to skip
to leave the blanks empty
remain idle and surge forth
with doomsday assured

how would i score
when my attempt is empty
i was haunted in my dreams
a zero hanging from the wall
my digestive system growled
how Could, how Can i miss it
it is only one chance
and i need to exist
and i chose to follow
my own instincts

some called me rebel
stubborn or stupid
but i ll fill each blank
with the word of my own
giving a meaning to
the essay of my life

love it is?

2010-04-03T13:30:00.001-07:00

she was sultry
he was handsome
she was mellow
he was agile
they saw
they desired
they hooked
and got booked
for the rest of their lives

love it is?

she was charming
he was adorable
she would read
he would watch
she would quote
he would yawn
and she was disappointed

love it is?

he would laugh his heart
she would smile
she wore checks
he liked stripes
he would joke
she would snide
and people called it love
and tied them up the altar

love it is?

she was unsure
he didn't care
but consumed in passion
of the bodily lure
they succumbed to their instinct
and crochet the knot of marriage

love it is?

they were impassioned
they were insane
they were careless
they seldom refrain
he fervently kissed
she replied
and he was in her
that very night

AND SHE DIED...

of the numbness
at the time astride
it was a communion
of both bodies
hollow to the core
she never lived
from that very night

he was a player
she was taciturn
he tried
faced spite
he turned to places
to get sufficed
and she despised
the stinking man
lying beside

and they call it love
at first sight...

Write ...

2010-03-20T13:04:00.000-07:00

writing...
just for the sake of writing
would not fetch a thing
when the hands move along
or rather type and throng
the keyboard
the thoughts flow
and you write
with a warmth of glow

writing...
just for the heck of show
would mark you as a
shady scarecrow
standing in a meadow
alone it is
none follows you back
neither gives a critique

writing ...
just to pour your whole
which has purity and
sans things so foul
just truth and cognitions
& deciphered mysteries
from the eyes of you
your body and soul

write to evacuate
the unease within
write to feel
unspoken zest within
write to express
things unsaid till now
write to write
no facade of frontal vows

Scars

2010-03-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

on the blanched pages of my Body
i have marked
incidents
experiences
time
moments
there are
Scars
bruises
lines
engraved at places
a kiss
a touch
a look
still etched in there
hate
ditch
spite
isolation
pitched with black

to live is to love
or in the love
i should live
where the blackness came
the source does exist
why the scars are their
on the skin so sheen
they are time begotten
painful and queer
a bath
an eraser
cosmetic lotions
can remove
which have absorbed
down deep?
in doubt
i lay
with the marks
i move
EveryWhere

two lost teeth

2010-02-08T05:02:00.000-08:00

i again passed by
heaved a deep sigh
it was dingy & closed
my memories soared
to the times i lived
flashed in the sight
i was laughing jostling
so young and nigh
laden in night blue dress
with frills at the fringe
oh crap!
i just fell from third storey
of the building
i jerked along
reminiscing memories
i landed on the shed
got up -swiveled, all dizzy
and again i fell
on the ground below
and that makes it two falls
in a single blow
lost two front teeth
what a shameful ordeal
i can c the visual
in the hospital seat
with people around
the pouring cries
i can remember so much
i cant still believe
i can still picture me
with 2 lost teeth

screech'd out

2010-01-26T07:56:00.000-08:00

they pester me
r u gone mad
where r the traits
aint u the chaste?

a girl shud b sweet
sans flambouyance
look at u
u scuttling fire

u ought to lisen!
litsen ! listen 2 me!
no i wont ! i wont
i cant take
ur orders upon me

my frailness
don't u dare point on!
my conduct
put ur finger down!

i am an equal
a squeal
'equal to thee'
thou shant tramp
on my entity

idee fixe

2010-01-22T13:18:00.000-08:00

there was no mirth there was no joy
just left as mere destiny's ploy
wandering drift
along i swift
i revolved on life's tangled labyrinth...

behold! dont let it go
says 2 me, one part of my soul ,
but the ego doesnt succumb to desire
anger and angst produce fire
and it failed , got lost in gyre ...

but i have chosen to stand by
on the heap of moments i have ever cried
the grains of joy i felt coz of thee
the boulder of agony i have heaved
i stand erect on all gone by

i have screamed and whimpered
in angst and fright
yet my steps progressed
keeping all aside
u stumbled and found a lifting hand
yet u left all things way behind
in the vain vanity and shallow pride
u stagged yourself out of the tribe
i have brushed along your spiny words
the bruises are there , they' ll forever hurt
yet i chose to pile the cherished , awhile
the morsels of love i saved aside
the resolve to never be one of thy
i stand pedastalized
to things so petty and sly

Blinded eyes

2010-01-22T12:44:00.000-08:00

Beware ! lest u go too deep
n burn in the glum ire
the sea of misery floats on the lids
the mist formed above the iris
they speak at tyms
when i m rendered speechless
no words to convey how i feel
a look so deep it pierce inside
to the very deapth of my being
the crazy passion that i devoured
was the intoxication of ur sight
yet now the misery embeds deep
love is opaque to my eyes.

i warmed in it the glaze of your gaze

my spirits soared underneath

i found the sea of gleaming diamonds

and thought 't was all i 'd ever need

the eyes that saw the hazel hues
was the crust of the shallow sheen
there wasnt love, just a mere facade
lust glossed with love of a feen.

vowed to the "bimbo"damsel :)

2010-01-18T05:42:00.000-08:00

Bimbo! Bimbo!
why were you born
why did god send u here
the whole earth yawns

DoDo watch above
the sky is blue
u snooze till late
wi get up at cow's moo?

u do walk in strides
and the feet turned out
with a blooper satchel
how do you do that pout!

why r u laughing now
wen all have hushed by
dodo bimbo grow up
stop being a foolish pry

but its you bimbo
who makes my world so bright
in your abysmal innocense
i see a pristine life

wen all is filth till brim
scum, evil and gross
with ur twinking smile
oh dear! my heart aglows

coz u r a nincompoop
that i cannot deny
but its u DoDo
The gleam of my life

rupture

2010-01-16T07:45:00.000-08:00

and they wont dry
till i pass by
the wrath i go thru
in flames me and i cry

yes i do try
to spread the joy
all effort empitied
n they flow till dry

n they pour from eyes
spread numbness by
i have to end it soon
or i cry till i die...

bliss of dance - a blank verse

2010-01-15T11:25:00.000-08:00

The body longs to stretch
Craves to hear the counts
And the sweat soaked clothes
Reflects the toil been through
The time u get exhausted
N fall flat on the back
Feeling the pulsing nerves
And the throbbing heart
there is sweat all around
The body emanates heat
A Swish of fan’s air
Through tiny-winy openings
Sends chill down beneath
In that one moment u grow
U grow u grow n u grow
A tear trickles down the cheek
As you know you have something achieved

Langsyne

2010-01-15T10:47:00.000-08:00

Yet it reappears in my fragmented mind
Every domain that was once stalked
It stands vivid ,erect and strong
in the vagueness of my thoughts

Why do I dream of it?
Which is insofar be gone
Why does each corner calls me
Have I left anything beyond?

When would the mystery decode
When will I soundly sleep?
I feel it calling me everyday
I could still hear the screech…

Yet I cannot pass by it
Without raising my eyes
On the most cherished past
Decayed in front of my sight

Why does u scrunch my heart?
Live thy in faux expectation why ?
What you contemplate won’t occur
With the burden of hopes you’ll die

Incredulous not to call you mine
I still fuel the desire …I will come by!